by suzy..... A friend texted to check in on me and Moose with the increasing COVID numbers, the wildfires in the same county where I owe a condo and all the ramifications of the above issues on our health/spirit. As she said “I think we are all just weary and those of us in the health care are really weary...oh and the wildfire that still rages...” I confirmed that weary is how I feel many days. Which is very unlike me. I am usually the optimist. Happy and finding the best in everything/everyone. Daily/weekly threat of cancelling elective surgeries again, closing clinics again, ICU’s over capacity and not enough health care workers to care for the sick patients again, and people refusing to wear masks or social distance and making this pandemic a political issue. It is not political-it’s a world-wide health crisis. People are dying and are dying alone. Or dying of loneliness from the new rules COVID imposed by COVID. If we go back to how things were in April and May, I will more than likely not be able to see my grandson again in person. I currently have rules in place before I can see him, and I can live with those (shower before I arrive and no stops between showering and getting to their place). No kissing him, but I can hold him and play with him and love on him for hours. He is truly the one consistent bright spot during my week. I am weary because of lack of my usual activities that keep me happy...travel, concerts, friends, BBQ’s family get togethers. Very few of the things I love and no end in sight to the pandemic. And the wildfires...heartbreaking to see the destruction of an incredibly beautiful part of our state that Moose and I spend hours exploring on foot or by vehicle. Got a little close to home when 2 different park rangers stopped us on a back road and told us the fire was getting closer, so they just closed the road we were on. We were instructed to get off the road immediately. We were able to see the flames...surreal. I know California is dealing with the same destruction. I must be honest; I have not been following the California fires since the Colorado fires raged on in Grand County. Some of my favorite places obliterated in one single day. Hopefully next time I write it will be more upbeat, but for now I am weary.